"Of course, if I go back in time I remember possibly the best babysitter ever. You are really amazing with kids. Tireless, exciting, playful, with endless creativity and ultimate generosity. And best of all, you actually cared, it wasn't just a pretense or chore. Your name was a bit magical back then, like a fairy world filled with endless fun and games!"
Which reminded me of the time my sister called to tell me her youngest was having a bad day and to cheer himself up he had spoken my pet name for him, as if I were there to give him a hug. What an honor.
It got me to thinking. I want my relationship with God to be like that. When I think about how God loves me, I want it to be like getting a hug. And when I think of Him, I want it to be magical, like a fairy world/fairyland filled with endless fun and amazement! And that's how I feel about the moving of the Holy Spirit. It is so awesome to be in a prayer time that is heavy with the Spirit of God. And what a memory of the four hour prayer meeting and the shift when we clapped and felt the His healing power released. Awesome!
But if I really look at my relationship with my nieces and nephews, especially when I compare it to their relationship with their parents, I realize it's not enough.
My nieces and nephews love spending time with me, but they have a deeper, stronger relationship with their parents. Their parents, who were there every day; often tough, consistently loving, providing for their needs, discipline, and fun. Not a fairyland, life!
Exodus 24 starts the narrative of Moses going up the mountain to get the 10 commandments. What most people don’t remember is that the start of the trek up the mountain included a feast given by God. It’s true!
Exodus 24:9-11 (NIV)
9 Moses and Aaron, Nadab and Abihu, and the seventy elders of Israel went up 10 and saw the God of Israel. Under his feet was something like a pavement made of lapis lazuli, as bright blue as the sky. 11 But God did not raise his hand against these leaders of the Israelites; they saw God, and they ate and drank.
So while Moses went up the mountain to talk to God, these men who had feasted with God went down the mountain and back to the people. You would think that feasting with God would have changed them all to devote and mature followers of God, yet within 40 days, Aaron has made a golden calf for the people to worship. And within a few months of that, Nadad and Abihu are killed for bringing strange fire before God, and it was during their priestly ordination!
Evidence from the Bible and from life shows that exciting times do not bring life change. Life change comes from something deeper and more substantial than an awesome experience.
If I'm honest with myself, I want my relationship with God to have that staying power that only comes from a long-term relationship between my loving heavenly Father and His devoted daughter. I will always long for the Holy Spirit to come in power, but it isn’t the thing I long for most anymore.