The last couple of weeks have been interesting, to say the least. Along with the normal autumn increase in activities, my five-person department is dealing with a boss who has a mysterious and very painful illness that doctors can't identify, a database conversion, our busiest time of year of renewing our members, the key person for the database conversion and renewal process resigning, and now our support person resigning. As you might imagine, I've been a little stressed, but it's been a really good time, too. All four of my sisters have been in town, one of my sisters will be staying with us 4 times in a 32 day window, I'm tutoring 2 individuals in English for a little over an hour (each individual) each week, and Mom keeps me on my toes. The best part of this last couple of weeks has been watching the changes God has made in me that have allowed me to handle it. From telling my boss I will step up to getting the first portion of the renewal process finished on the given timetable by making a great team with my coworker to cheerfully creating a document that answered another supervisor's plea and got her to send a thank you to my boss, God has given me strength and peace that I was not expecting. I, like every other Christian, have God's grace at work in my life, but it's amazing what a difference it makes when I truly understand, or at least am beginning to understand, what that means.
Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts:
And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. (KJV)
While familiar, these scriptures have never been my friends. I wondered why anyone would ask God to show them more things that are wrong with them. Don’t we already know about more than we can handle? But recently my perspective has shifted. (My sister, whose devotional has been of such great benefit to me, called it ‘moving from guilt to grace.’) What if these verses are not about giving God an opportunity to point out my flaws? What if these verses are asking God to go into my hidden places? What if these verses are asking God to work on areas that I can't work on myself?
During the time, or possibly even before, I have been meditating on these verses, God has been bringing before me Philippians 4:6, which says, “Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God;” (NKJV). It started with a Wednesday discussion by the pastor's wife, continued when it was my prayer card at a Bible study a few weeks later, and most recently was part of the Sunday sermon on being fearless. When I mentioned both of these Scriptures, Psalms 139:23-24 and Philippians 4:6, to another sister, she mentioned how one of the translations of the Psalms scripture includes the words for God to seek out 'my anxious thoughts.' Isn't it just like God to tie things together!
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